hola evr1., have u ever been exprience na ma inlove and di mo maintindihan kung co incdnce o parang nanadya yun destny,,, well im expriencing it over and over
again,, pero natututo nmn ako.. hmmm..See im the type of person nung una na msyadong mabait, i didnt know na wala na pala natitira sakin, i also forgot to obey my mom.. but the problem,, pag mahal kuna guy nawawala sila sakin,,what i mean they have to go for distance,, ang hirap pnmn ng ganunsa relationship.. lalu na pag years na tinagal niu,, lagi m syang kasama..Secend tym around same senaryo.. he has to left me,, third time around ganun din.. well again i had change of heart, at sa ganun expirience na laman ko na di nagwowork ang long distance relationship..I become bitter,. And know i have a long time bf....... im 21.. almost 3 years na kami..he court me before,, naging crush nia ko and naging m.u. kame pero lokohan lang, But sa relationship nmin now, he was my shoulder to cry on, He see me at my worst but still he loves me...accept me for who i em.. He do things better for me, He cry for me, He beg me to stay, and stick with him, He was a bad influence at the first senaryo sa relationship nmin,.tropa tropa kmi lagi kmi nag iinum, bf dito ako bf sya dyan,, lagi sya naloloko din ng mga babae,bottom line parang parehas lang kame hangang naging bitter nakami sa mga partner nmin..di nmn alam un word na TRUST but my world is different now,,i started think twice bagu maghinala.. and I stop drinking too much, Clubin', late up, smoke, etc. Third party and txmates, I just wOke up somday.. di nako nagyoyoc, di nako uminum ng sobra at lagi lagi, I start believin that love is gOOd... lol..farytale happen sometimes, i started love colorful colors instead of plane black, I started putting make up again, I realize that im in love with this guy..Even he was a playboy,I started make him feel how special he was to me, how i love him, how i cherish him and treasure him, There was the time na i caught him cheating on me he temp to suicide, haiiiii,,, di ko maiwanan that was the time na di nako naniniwala sa relationship na pang fary tale hmmm...so im back to bein bad and stupid, Alam ko nmn na he suffer sa ginawa nia, helost my trust and he lost my 50% of me love,, swempe gangster imiral nmn yun pag ka bossy ko,,, I let him do evrything he wanted to do,,,parang wla lang na yun habilin nia pero I can forgive but not forget,, hmm,Pero after a while we talk, kahit 50-50 ako sa mga binubuo nmin ulit na rules sa relationship nm,in we started again.. I see him more seriouse and more coperative sa relationship nmin, I knew also i made him better than before,, maDAME naging benefits yun relationship nmn, we grow, we become more matured and more responsible.. Even na me Humps at Low ride yun relationship.... sabi nga nila walang perfect relationship but it looks like almost PERFECT,,, hahaha wlang nakaktawa diba,, parang bitter na talaga ako, pero alam ko mahal ko sya,, I was thinking, do i have to believe that mag wowowrk kami lalu na ngaun na layu na nia sakin dalang labng nmin mag ka communication, week ends lang daw,,, haiiiii,,, naguguluhan nmn ako , kasi ayoko maniwala na nagwowork yunlong distance relationship,, masama ba ako? kung sa totoo lang nagun sinusulat ko tong blog ko nag start nako mag mind setting na maging ready ako whatever happends sa realtionship na to. Hai ,,,, 2009 na nagun di na kaya uso yun STICK to ONE .. oo mahal mo sya, nag iisa lang sya sa buhay mo,, pero aminin natin .. HALIMBAWA ikaw bf mo mahl na mahl mo.. Pero bigla linandi ka ni KOBE BRAYANT,, haha.. negro example ko type ko yan mga yan.... yeeeeeeee naku nagugulahan talaga ako kasi on the other side parang unfair nmanm db? bat nmn ako ganto kng talga nmn nagbgu n sya at mhal nia ako khit gnun mgng stwasyun nmin,, bka anther humps lang tO sa raod nmin,,, and we will overcome this,,,,,,, wahahahahahahaha na aaning ako,,sa bandang huli masabi ko NOT AGAIN maiwan nmn ako dito...................... Moral lesson,,sa mga relationship na dinaan natin lagi kau magtatanda sa mali niu para di na to maulit,, i guess ganun ako pero sobra nmn ata ako makapag duda ngaun,,,,,, pray tau , god is with us.. this is the battle of bigboss......NEO Godbless evry one!!
kisses and hugs
_NEO
